Tall doesn’t equate to trust. Charming doesn’t equate to honest. A good job doesn’t equate to a good life. All of these things sound great in theory, but I’ve learned that the more I know, the less I realize I actually know.
This New Moon is a time to really process what has been happening, and allow it to move you forward to fullness. It is up to you to transcend darkness, to use what you've learned to guide you to happiness.
Despite my loneliness, I’ve found camaraderie in characters of books, catharsis in the lyrics of all the sad songs, comfort in brushstrokes -- the brilliant way chiaroscuro makes the light in an oil painting come to life.
Are you getting married because you’re getting older and you don’t want to be alone, or because you’ve found someone whom you truly love, whom you feel worthy and deserving of? When we make choices based on fear, we lose ourselves and end up living lives that aren’t our own.
She’s long gone. She is hot-spark divinity embodied in goose-bumped skin and framed by spiraling bones. She is the high, rebel Priestess, now she knows it, and she could never return to the too-small, so-quaint life you were offering that made you God and her, disciple.
I realized why I hadn’t been drinking. It stopped me from feeling. It stopped me from feeling something. And even if it’s only tiny, even if it only halts some smidgen of emotion, I realized that’s what booze does for me. It inhibits feeling.