7 Traits of Magical People.

Source: 1954, The Mad Magician.

By Carolyn Elliott.

1. You know you’re magic.

This is the big one. In their heart of hearts, everyone is magic. But most folks just don’t know it. It’s very sad, and it’s not their fault. They’ve had the awareness beaten out of them one way or another. Our society in general is very anti-magic.

Magic people always have a mission. And part of that mission is to help folks still stuck in the clay (that’s my way catchy of saying “folks still stuck in naive materialism and unaware of their innate magic-ness”) understand that magic is real and within them, too.

So basically, if you know you’re magic, you’re ahead of the game. Which means you don’t really need this article – but look, it’s the internet and we’re just having fun.

2. Synchronicities happen for you – a lot.

And they tend to speed up when you spend a lot of time on meditation, art, ritual, intentional movement or prayer. Sometimes these synchronicities are just cute or silly, but often they’re life-changing and dramatic.

The biggest synchronous thing that can happen to a magic person is to meet another magic person. Or a whole enclave of them. It’s thrilling. It’s overwhelming. It’s love.

When lots of synchronicities are going on, I like to say “the jewel net is moving.” Why?

Because we’re all jewels in an infinitely connected web of silken joy.  

And sometimes the net shifts and folds in on itself and we run smack into a whole bunch of other jewels. And it’s great.

3. You’re sensitive to seasons and lunar cycles.

The more magic you are (and remember, being magic is mainly a matter of… knowing that you’re magic!) the more the energies of light and the two big cosmic lamps in our region (the sun and moon) affect your business.

You might find that you can’t sleep on full moon nights (all that energy, so ramped up!) and that you go through epic mythopoetic cycles of emotional birth and death as spring turns to summer turns to fall turns to winter.

4. You have very vivid dreams.

Magic people have at least partially developed aetheric bodies. This means, at the very least, that one or more of their chakras (Rudolf Steiner liked to call them “lotus flowers”) are open and active.

Maybe you’re a magic person with a giant, pulsing, highly-empathic heart chakra. Or maybe your third eye is open and you have an easy time seeing the visionary fluid dance of all things.

At the highly developed end of the spectrum, magic people have fully-formed aetheric bodies that can freely navigate the astral planes.

But having your aetheric sense perceptions open, even a little bit, means that you can see more vividly in the nighttime dream world than others can. So, you got that goin’ for you. Which is nice.

5.  When you fall in love, it’s psychedelic.

Forget a loaf of bread, a jug of wine and thou. When a magic person falls in love (very probably with another magic person), it’s more like a sheet of acid, a gallon of mushroom tea and thou. And I’m not saying that actual drugs are involved.

I’m saying that the intensity of dopamine and oxytocin rushes, in magic brains, tends to produce more than just sexy-cozy-attachment.

They tend to also unleash psychic perception (you can read your lover’s thoughts – like, for reals – not just “I was thinking of you!” “I knew you were thinking of me, baby. ‘Cause I was thinking of you!“), encounters with your lover in the nighttime dream world, ecstatic sex that ruptures the boundaries of your identity, and other fun stuff.

Also, be careful with all that. It can get hairy if your lover happens to be one of those not-really-very-stable-or-sane magic people. Of which there are quite a few.

Magic people fall in love and it’s all like, whoah.

6. You have an abundance of prana.

Or creative energy. Or genius, or whatever you want to call it.

Wilhelm Reich called it “orgone.” Kant called it “Geist.” Emerson called it “Soul.” Mezmer called it “animal magnetism.” It’s sexual energy which transmutes into different feeling-tones when centered in different chakras and channels in the body.

In other words – even though it’s sexual energy, your abundant prana doesn’t necessarily feel “sexy” (although it probably does in spring and summer). It might just feel buzz-y or space-y or urgently creative.

You get seized with the need to write that poem, plan that ritual, record that song, make those spicy ginger fudge brownies. It’s implacable.

Also, no matter what you look like, folks tell you that you’re “hot.” And they mean it. You are. You radiate the light and heat of the cosmos. You’re a star, you magic darling!

7. You love to spread the magic around.

Your chief motive for making art, cooking great food, tending your garden, whatever – isn’t to be rich or famous. Though that could be cool.

If you’re magic, your biggest motive is to spread the magic around, because you just can’t stand not doing it. The magic is so fun, so beautiful, so warm, so true.

This means that it drives you a little crazy when you can totally see the magic in someone, and they can’t see it in themselves.

It drives you maybe even more crazy when you can totally see the magic in the world, and the world at large seems to not tenderly care for and appreciate its own magic.

So, you put effort everyday into doing stuff that increases the sum-total of magic and wonder and joy and love and delight in the world.

You turn up the volume on everything gorgeous so it can’t be ignored.

In conclusion,

You’re magic and I am too, and I love you. I hope you’ll join me and a bunch of other magic folks in the Dreamer’s Tantra Facebook Group, where we talk about this kinda stuff.

 

*****

{Cast a spell}

118 Comments

  • Tanya Lee Markul
    tanya lee markul commented on April 16, 2013 Reply
    I LOVED this!
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      Tanya – I love… everything I can see that you do and write. ;)
    • Virgil Davis commented on July 29, 2013 Reply
      You described me to a T my magical friend! :)
  • blueskiesand commented on April 16, 2013 Reply
    I also LOVED this!
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      Yay!
      • katie beck commented on April 12, 2015 Reply
        I wish soo much that I could meat you Carolyn so you can tell me if I have magik, also coz your so …..awesome
  • Laura commented on April 17, 2013 Reply
    The ego.. it is spilling out of this article!!!!
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      Oh yes – I’m not enlightened yet. Working on it.
    • harlequinforestfairy commented on August 17, 2014 Reply
      There is nothing egotistical about acknowledging your own majick!!! As a matter of fact, NOT acknowledging your own majick REEKS of ego! If you deny your own majick for the sake of false humility, you are letting your own ego control you out of fear. Humility for the sake of humility is, in itself, egotistical. I am sorry to say, Laura, but you are wrong. Carolyn, you are enlightened if you are aligned with love, which you seem to be! It is as simple as that. Much love!!! <3
      • julie commented on August 31, 2014 Reply
        Indeed. Ego is not acknowledging your magic, ego is trying to subdue someone elses out of jealousy.
  • Kirk Hensler commented on April 17, 2013 Reply
    this is great.
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      Thank you kindly, Kirk. Your thinking that it’s great is – great.
  • Mamaste
    Mamaste commented on April 17, 2013 Reply
    I do believe that Rebelle Society is the magnet for the magic. The people who read, write & conduct RS are true unicorns. You know….like attracts like. xoxo ~Mamaste
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      For reals – Rebelle Society is hands down my favorite place online. The magic and kindness of the writers here literally saved my life in Fall 2012.
  • Andrea Balt
    Andrea Balt commented on April 17, 2013 Reply
    Carolyn, you rock. Thanks for being our magician. Cape on.
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      Baby, you’re welcome and I learned lots of rocking from you. ;) I got more where that came from – just need to write it down.
    • Amanda Wallace commented on August 29, 2013 Reply
      I second this! Every time I find myself wondering why I’m making whatever crazy, impractical, yet passion filled project I’m making at the moment, I’m going to remember this- “you put effort everyday into doing stuff that increases the sum-total of magic and wonder and joy and love and delight in the world.” Thanks, lady! :)
  • Brett commented on April 21, 2013 Reply
    Brilliant…. Many answers here..:-P
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      Thank you Brett – I find these type of answers tend to generate more great questions, too. ;)
  • Patricia Biesen commented on April 21, 2013 Reply
    I loved this and boy I can certainly relate!
  • Gilles Havik commented on April 24, 2013 Reply
    Magic people Sail on Dreams, instead of drowning in it! Nice to read, with spring around. I don’t know how to join the FB group though. Gilles
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      Hi Giles – either click the link or search on Facebook for “The Dreamer’s Tantra.” You’ll see a button that says “request to join” – hit that, and then I’ll be able to add you.
  • Victoria commented on April 24, 2013 Reply
    Ive known my magic since I was 7, cuz a lil tree I played with all the time told me :)
  • H Von Dunker commented on April 24, 2013 Reply
    Miss Elliot! You are AMAZINGLY AWESOME! Here’s my Facebook post when I shared your article. OH HEAVEN”S YES!!!!!! I may NOT be a Witch, but I AM MAGICAL. I think most Dervish are – we are simply born outside the Human experience, and then come here WITH those memories intact. I don’t even pretend to understand it, but I certainly get that it is true… And when 4,000 Dervish get together for a week of prayer (often 11 to 20 hours a day), it is like having sparkling jewels walking around in that fabric she talks about. Because the Lord of Abraham comes first, in our lives, the power is Never used for personal gain, but borrowed, given and exchanged for greater Love sharing. I like to think of it as the ET-Flower effect! Love Finds a Way to Expand…
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      Oh yes – dervishes and sufis are some of the sweetest magic going on this crazy planet.
  • Daniel Lowe commented on April 25, 2013 Reply
    Wow, it’s like you really *KNOW* me. Infrequently, I will dream short segments of the future. As for magic, I’m fully aware of my own magic. And, I’m sharing it with others in my films – http://danieldragonfilms.com
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      Daniel – I love your site, thanks for sharing it with me & us. I hope you join our FB group, the Dreamer’s Tantra. ;)
  • Lisa Manyon commented on April 27, 2013 Reply
    Brilliant.
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      Thank you, Lisa. <3
      • brandonvonglaha commented on October 28, 2014 Reply
        This is Bullshit what kind of magic do are you talking about..i really dont understand one word this article is trying to explain to me..is this articly for hippies or what?
  • santo commented on April 27, 2013 Reply
    NO! these things happen when we know THE UNIVERSE is magic, and we become willing to go with it and embrace truth. beware of the trickster that looks for psyckyc wealth instead of spiritual growth: a lower level that excludes expanded consciousness~
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      Santo – if the universe is magic why wouldn’t the people in it be magic? — And I hear your warning about looking for psychic power rather than spiritual growth. In my experience all psychic ability that I has arose out of moving forward spiritually.
      • Jason Lafolle commented on May 15, 2013 Reply
        :):
    • Erja commented on August 22, 2013 Reply
      We are the universe aren’t we, anyway <3 <3 ?
  • SR Atchley
    SR Atchley commented on April 28, 2013 Reply
    Well, then. Welcome home. Magicians unite!
  • Chandra Smith commented on April 28, 2013 Reply
    Finally! I have been dreaming of this page.
  • Jo Crawford, Crafting the Sacred commented on April 29, 2013 Reply
    I love your take on prana and creative energy. There is nothing more of a turn-on for me than creating – it fills me up and makes me want more.
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      Jo – thank you, that means a lot coming from such a gifted lady as yourself!
  • barbarapotter commented on May 1, 2013 Reply
    Very cool.
  • Rachael Rice (@rachael_rice) commented on May 1, 2013 Reply
    This article is rad as fuck. THANK YOU. #magicalcreature
    • Carolyn Elliott
      Carolyn Elliott commented on May 9, 2013 Reply
      Hell yeah, Rachael Rice, you’re rad as fuck too. ;)
  • lisa406Lisa Bradley-Sims commented on May 1, 2013 Reply
    AHA! The lightbulb in my brain just clicked to “On”..
  • Jasmine Papprill commented on May 1, 2013 Reply
    I love this!! I’m printing it out
  • Acid commented on May 16, 2013 Reply
    You are my soul-sister, soul-twin, whatever it may be, but after reading this I know we are connected deeply and intertwined on the same exact path.
  • Billy commented on May 16, 2013 Reply
    You forgot: 8) Smell really good. 9) Have great lips. 10) Sparks come from their fingertips.
  • zentango commented on May 17, 2013 Reply
    Synchronicity is a meeting of moment and.. magic! Came across your article from a friend’s post – just in the nick of time of needing some magic! Coincidentally, 1st rehearsal this weekend as a Chinese magician in an indie film – hoping to meet up with a friend to tonight & create some tango magic!
  • traceybecker commented on May 23, 2013 Reply
    I like the idea that I might be magical rather than just weird.
    • GregB commented on May 30, 2013 Reply
      thats cool, Tracey :-)
  • mirandarichards@sbcglobal.net commented on May 24, 2013 Reply
    If you came to this page, and are reading this article, YOU are magic! :)
  • joao commented on May 30, 2013 Reply
    Thank you very much Carolyn for the information shared, it is very important for some people to realize that all weird stuff that has happened before were not abnormal. and also to realize for the first time that there more alike after all. namaste! Here’s some work with music i have been experimenting. a concept of information and electronic soundwaves experiments. http://m.soundcloud.com/microwaveporn/no-more-shame-part1-re best wishes of true happiness and love for all
  • Joe commented on May 31, 2013 Reply
    I am absolutely convinced that I fit into everything you just talked about. I also think magic people are kind people.and can feel what others are going through,. This is good and bad.
  • Tony commented on May 31, 2013 Reply
    Ownership and money are magic :D Being poor is a horrible curse, picture the people from third world countries. A rich person who has all the good things that life has to offer knows they are magic. Money is just energy!
    • nanopod commented on August 9, 2013 Reply
      You sadly assume that people in 3rd world countries are cursed because they lack money? Happily, my experience with people living in 3rd world countries has been one of creative, loving, giving, happy individuals. Often more in tune with nature, and magic then those that have monetary wealth, living in the 1st world.
  • Clayton commented on June 2, 2013 Reply
    If you want to smell the roses you must be prepared to feel the thorn -thus is life…it doesn’t mean being attached to the pain but recognizing how important it is to hurt too – you have (self-servingly I suggest) left out this critical point – love the rest tho! ots of love C
    • Marianna commented on April 11, 2015 Reply
      Hmmm… thank you for this comment, probably a year old. However… made me realize one obvious thing: it is only those who are breaking/killing those roses that feel their thorns. Those who smell them however, only feel the heavenly fragrance as they do not grab those roses and try to break/kill them. A-ha ! :)
  • Society of Joyful People commented on June 2, 2013 Reply
    Love, love, love this. Magic is wonderful and sadly dies for too many grownups. It’s time to resurrect magic for more people
  • Laine DeLaney commented on June 3, 2013 Reply
    This is bursting at the seams with awesomeness! All my life I’ve been and known people like this, and we knew that we had a connection, that we were similar, but we’ve never had good words for it. I appreciate your categorization of qualities of The Kind Of People I Love.
  • nekosensei commented on June 5, 2013 Reply
    Went to the link you posted, and saw that it was a closed group. You’re no longer accepting new people?
  • winston commented on June 10, 2013 Reply
    What a babe
  • Naya Aerodiode (@thesilverspiral) commented on June 13, 2013 Reply
    This is perfect.
  • Cora commented on June 13, 2013 Reply
    Love this article!! <3 However I really wanted to print it and I don't see any link for a printable version. Tried just directly printing it but it wanted to print 31 pages of mostly advertisements that are on here hahah. So is there even a printable version?
  • m commented on June 17, 2013 Reply
    i so like this….. much love and respect. m from waykiwayki.com
  • Cassandra commented on June 23, 2013 Reply
    Magical, sexy, delicious words.
  • abiliciouz commented on July 10, 2013 Reply
    I feel like I wrote this in my dream , I swear. When a Magic one meet another Magic Soul, gaddam !! I just read my soul right there. Awesomeness at the start of my day. You bout it gurl, I got u.x
  • Andrew commented on July 10, 2013 Reply
    Nice! Loved it!
  • Mark commented on July 11, 2013 Reply
    That’s lovely! I always suspected I was magic. Now I know it for sure! x
  • Leo Tabibzadegan commented on July 29, 2013 Reply
    Dear God. I’m Magic! Whoooop! #winning
  • Virgil Davis commented on July 29, 2013 Reply
    Every minute you spend angry, upset or mad, is a full minute of happiness you’ll never get back. Life is short, Count your blessings, Forgive quickly, it keeps them from hurting your heart anymore. Hold no grudges, Kiss slowly, Love truly, Smile daily, Laugh uncontrollably, Go out of your way to be kind to others and bring a smile when possible, it’s Always possible. Focus on positive thoughts and associate with positive people. Life sometimes may not be the party we hoped for, but while we’re here, we should dance. I hope you always remember to dance…
    • Holly commented on January 15, 2015 Reply
      Thank you for your thoughts, Virgil. I’ve returned twice to read them, especially ‘forgive quickly, it keeps them from hurting your heart anymore.” That could also be written, ‘forgive quickly, it keeps you from hurting yourself anymore’. Beautiful, thank you.
  • Fairy Princess Genevieve commented on July 29, 2013 Reply
    I love this! I’m so magical I built a business around it! :) Thanks for writing this :)
    • Virgil Davis commented on July 29, 2013 Reply
      Keep the magic going on your end….I got this on this end.. :)
  • Earth Like Planets commented on July 29, 2013 Reply
    I feel what you are referring to here. It’s great. But, I meet so many people that very magical and are constantly pushing themselves outward on to the world. They do this so much, that they have very little room to really listen to others. I worry that celebrating the fact that you are so magical will prevent you from having truly intimate real bonds with people. Also, I worry that this magical person has no room or time or patience for the real sacrifice it takes to truly love someone. I worry that this magical person would not have the time to take care of a sick family member or spouse, for example. I love the spirit of what you talk about. I just wish it was written about in context to hardship and sacrifice.
    • James Edward Briggs commented on August 22, 2013 Reply
      Jesus the Christ demonstrates that best alone and through us…
  • Steve DeCoste commented on July 30, 2013 Reply
    Cool beans… things i did that were magic on my summer vacation… go to watch my kids Swing dance in Paris (cause they are magic), Dance to an accordian man on a train platform w my daughter when everyone was hot and bitchy…anyways.. and everyone smiled, nude sunbathed by myself in the south of France…cause i could, hike… get hot.. drink lemonade and swim in the Mediterranean at Cinque Terra in my gaunchies for the first time in my 50 year old life whilst grinning my fool face off….read the book my neighbour wrote and totally dig it…. encouraged/helped a struggling guy who was windsurfing to get the damn sail up( he said he “didn’t want the help” but the sail came up magically for the first time in over an hour of watching after i talked to him, talked to someone who i am related to… an another continent… about the same relative as me since before the 1600’s and both felt the magic, hiked to a grape vineyard, pay too much for a thing i didn’t even want.. to try and help a stuggling dude from Senegal..and make him smile, bunch-a other stuff
    • LeslieAnn commented on October 14, 2013 Reply
      Steve! We kin.
  • AnnA Morvant commented on July 31, 2013 Reply
    Thx ^_^ You’re butterfly Carolyn, euh, I mean.. beautifull :-) http://www.premiumastrology.biz/wp-content/uploads/2013/01/butterfly.jpg
  • Caela Bialek commented on July 31, 2013 Reply
    Just found this site, and your words speak to my soul – I’m a science major, and the more I learn about science, the more magical I feel. Yay, life! Thank you for writing.
  • Amanda De Vuono commented on August 1, 2013 Reply
    Oh how I loved reading this. I’m magic!! Seriously, Carolyn, your photo above…. Toulouse Lautrec painted your portrait in a past life, just sayin’
  • u mad commented on August 2, 2013 Reply
    you suck
  • cre8alot commented on August 9, 2013 Reply
    AWESOME!!! Of course this was sent to me from another magical being and it resonates perfectly. Even to the point that I wear A LOT of prana clothing. Let your magic shine people. ~ Tashi delay – cre8alot
  • P.R.A.Y. (@rockangelyogi) commented on August 13, 2013 Reply
    I LOVED your article. As a sparkly magical creature I am often referred to, almost condescendingly as “fairy”, “witch” or other words denoting magic by people who I know secretly wish could tap into their magical essence but haven’t skimmed the surface- yet. I love all the descriptions of a magical person you use. This article brought me tremendous joy today because as a sensitive magical person, sometimes the darker more cynical people wear me down with judgement and lack of understanding my ways (which are unique and simply different). THANK YOU goddess angel fairy sister, thank you. <3
  • Rob P commented on August 16, 2013 Reply
    love it!! i read this article on the same day somebody told me I had ‘great energy’ and a lot of this clicks. I applied to your fb group.. thanks!
  • J commented on August 22, 2013 Reply
    Thank you! Really enjoyed this one! I am definitely magic and so are you! And it’s great there’s so many of us! :D
  • Ron commented on August 22, 2013 Reply
    Ha. “It can get hairy if your lover happens to be one of those not-really-very-stable-or-sane magic people.” Just ask me. I’ll tell you. That was timely. Thank you.
  • Satya commented on August 22, 2013 Reply
    Holy cow … this may be the best article I’ve read online in like a year or maybe forever. You are fucking amazing!
  • twitchysister commented on August 22, 2013 Reply
    I love this! From one magic sistah to another… so much love!
  • magic-ian commented on August 23, 2013 Reply
    I like being magical! I simply wish I knew how to properly harness that magic. Seems all I do anymore is misinterpret my ability, but this article is spot on and gave that ability a name :) Thanks! (and thanks for sharing, brother. ~Peace!)
  • Harry Monke commented on August 25, 2013 Reply
    magic people. yeah, I’ve seen them. Sometimes they ride around on the city bus talking to everyone while listening to no one. Or, they just go into politics. magic people. yup.
  • CJ Wright commented on August 25, 2013 Reply
    This is a fantastic article, Carolyn. Magic people are very sensitive, too. And they can get picked on by people who either don’t understand them or haven’t discovered their own magic. A friend passed this article on to me, and I’m passing it on to others…just in case they forgot they were magic.
  • steve commented on August 28, 2013 Reply
    You are incredible! Thank you for such a wonderful reminder. :) And you’re amazingly gorgeous too! :D
  • liz commented on August 29, 2013 Reply
    yes, you have described me!!
  • Scot commented on October 13, 2013 Reply
    For me, this is pure serendipity!! Beautifully and elegantly expressed, your words are indeed magical. Synchronous namastes to you!!
  • Amy Elizabeth commented on October 14, 2013 Reply
    I love this so much!
  • paulsell77 commented on October 14, 2013 Reply
    “The biggest synchronous thing that can happen to a magic person is to meet another magic person. Or a whole enclave of them. It’s thrilling. It’s overwhelming. It’s love.” Love is understanding that everybody is a magic person, its not a club, compassion is for all, this is just spiritual materialism. Spirituality for the ego. Shouldn’t we think about those who need that love the most, instead of patting ourselves on the back ?
  • Zeus Yiamouyiannis, Ph.D. commented on October 14, 2013 Reply
    Love the playful (but right-on-target) humor. Example: “Also, be careful with all that. It can get hairy if your lover happens to be one of those not-really-very-stable-or-sane magic people. Of which there are quite a few.” That’s right! We are in a transitional age and its not the magics against the rationals, it’s a rag tag team of creatives, some more balanced, some less, trying to transform themselves and the world. It’s a dance, and instability is a natural part of the game at this point. It’s almost necessary for creativity and possibility. Great essay.
  • Dave Silva commented on October 14, 2013 Reply
    Carolyn Elliot, you are my new favorite writer. Rudolph Steiner and Wilhelm Reich are perhaps the two most important scientist/researchers of the 20th Century.
    • vyana commented on February 22, 2015 Reply
      WoW – Dave – you got the trilogy – and, indeed, Carolyn has transcended both of them – she is the 21st century magic- synchronizer!!!
  • AB commented on December 17, 2013 Reply
    You wrote “It can get hairy if your lover happens to be one of those not-really-very-stable-or-sane magic people. Of which there are quite a few” as if this sentence would somehow be invisible to the people you’re talking about. It would be nice to read something aimed at the people you’re assuming your readers aren’t. After years of recurring clinical depressions, a coupe of years ago, I had my first manic break (and that is what it was; delusions of reference/grandeur, near-certainty that I was broadcasting my thoughts, actual hallucinations, no ability to concentrate on anything but my own thoughtstream, a near-total inability to think clearly that I was only faintly aware of, not much cute or spiritual about it) around the same time the synchronicity tidal wave hit. I don’t know which came first. I understand that acute episodes of mood disorders are often triggered by things. The tough thing about getting hit with weird coincidences on a weekly to several-times-a-day basis, if you’ve got one of those brains that likes computer solitaire a lot — e.g. an OCD-style brain, which is highly comorbid with bipolarity — there’s a decent chance that it’s eventually going to start reacting to things that sound slightly coincidental but aren’t as if they were also incredible coincidences. I can tell myself after the fact that I would have interpreted anything the couple next to me said to each other as a reaction to or comment on the thought I’d just had, but it doesn’t take away the weird little “hit” my brain scored when I heard it that way, and it didn’t erase the way I objectified the people next to me and turned them, in my mind, into a delivery system for me personally. It’s no good to feel that you’re in lockstep with the universe like that, if it goes on too long. It can feel pretty oppressive, a la the less dumb verses of “California Uber Alles” or oh let’s say the strapping-down in A Clockwork Orange. Unfortunately, I don’t completely want this dreamlike state to stop, even though it angers and saddens me sometimes by making me feel that I’m trapped in some kind of covered dome where every word is full of meaning for me, me, me but never any kind of meaning that would get me out of this stupid Kafka story. The trouble, I think, is that I’m lonely (and shy), and the synchronicities give me a sense of connection with something, even if it’s something I can’t wholly believe in (which is probably the only reason I haven’t been committed a second time) or see as any less impersonal and potentially brutal than any other aspect of nature. I also suspect my occupation with it is putting off the depression that most people with this disease spend, on average, 80 percent of their time in, and which is particularly hard to medicate, as the more effective medications tend to promote mania. What I’m saying is that it would be nice to read something for people who find this a trial, whether they feel oppressed by something they didn’t ask for, or find it mixes badly with an illness, or what. Being told all the time that I’m supposed to be happy isn’t exactly validating, or of much practical use. And this is what happens when I look for people writing about synchronicities or kundalini. I see commonalities, but the writers and commenters sound ecstatic about stuff that feels like kind of a punch in the gut most of the time. If you can point me any writings that talk about this from at least an ambivalent perspective, or a formerly-in-pain one, I’d appreciate it a lot.
  • AB commented on December 17, 2013 Reply
    Well, I tried to use paragraph breaks. Sorry about that!
  • Slim Chandra-Shekar commented on December 24, 2013 Reply
    Pure magic! I loved this!!!
  • maridis commented on December 26, 2013 Reply
    Life is so short, we must go very slowly.
  • C0RT commented on December 26, 2013 Reply
    Magically shared! Found a nice explanation of this sort of magic here http://www.ringingcedars.com/sequel/
  • Cristina commented on December 27, 2013 Reply
    Pixie dust forever! Thank you, validating & empowering.
  • Gail Monique Mallo commented on January 9, 2014 Reply
    I love this! I love this so much I can’t believe I found this. It’s like I’ve known all my life that I’m a magic person, a star girl but I can’t explain to anyone why I feel this way. And this just nailed it and it’s like finding people who feel like me. Who believe in the magic as much as I do. So thank you.
  • brandon serrato commented on February 9, 2014 Reply
    How does one truly become enlightened? help
  • foreverrabat commented on August 28, 2014 Reply
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=URhzTItNSYU – see nd swer me about the language
  • Ejona commented on September 24, 2014 Reply
    this is best thing to read in the morning …thank you
  • carrie commented on January 11, 2015 Reply
    Spot on ! I try to spread my magic/joy via soap. I have a need to make soap, beautiful soap, colorful; joy filled soap :)
  • Pedro commented on January 16, 2015 Reply
    The part of me that’s an insecure, self-aggrandizing narcissist loves this. I so special. Tell me I’m special. I’ll tell you you’re special, and together we can have an infinite spiraling circlejerk of special. So special!
  • vyana commented on February 22, 2015 Reply
    magic is livinglovingliving………..you got ‘it’ Carolyn. Thanks.
  • Pinkie B commented on June 1, 2015 Reply
    Oh, yeah. That’s all me right there. (Except the falling in love bit. I don’t really do falling in love. Or maybe I just pretend I don’t)

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