Happiness Is Birthing Your Art.
The creative process is multi-faceted mystical feminine wonder.
Delight is in the making. The quest of becoming happy is rooted in the creation of profoundly meaningful expression from your collective experiences.
When happiness eludes the artist, it is up to her to create a new idea of the definition itself by discovering a million ways to express a finite emotion. Happiness may not be an overall ‘thing’ but a mosaic containing the collective aspects of personal experiences scattered across space-time.
Pain is present to remind you that reflection and release are necessary to clear the path for understanding the nature of joy and the properties of its lightness. In the physical plane as we know it, all things have an opposing force that serves as a precursor to fulfillment: joy cannot be tasted unless the bitterness of sorrow is remembered, the pains of the journey honored.
During the expository process of understanding your inmost self, the deflowering of your idealisms about who you think you are hurts until you get used to your consciousness penetrating the dark tunnel of your defenses.
Your infinite core is inseminated by a hot and torrid rendezvous with your actions and supporting emotions intermingling with positive and negative experiences until a great climax of ideas weaves together the fibers of a living, breathing, complex medium of self-expression.
At first you will feel a fluttering in your depths.
A fluttering of the memories of love and loss, hope and despair that writhes uncontrollably inside of you until you grant it audience. As you begin a process of benign exploration, you find there is star-lit gold within your deepest gashes.
This is the time to aerate the pain with the breath of your life and impregnate it with the elixir of your unconditional self-love and courage to create.
Soon the day will come when you realize that you have created a purpose unfolding from fluttering wisps to full embodied movement within the seat of your soul. You will be uncontainable with excitement as you discover what is within you.
Your moments of pain have come together to create a masterful work of art, nourished through the flow of your sacred waters, gently suspended in a protective, nourishing sac. You begin to prepare the world for the arrival of your art. You make room for the abundance it will bring and glow from the output of its crystalline hue within you.
When the moment arrives, your creative ripeness will be made apparent by the spontaneous flow of the embryonic sac punctured by readiness. Your sacred waters flow and the sharp pains of creation you prepared for begin.
You will scream and cry from the agony it causes you. You think you may die as you feel your world being turned inside out from the exposure of your authentic self. You will grasp at anything nearby, screaming profanities, red-eyed and sweating. You will wish to be numbed with the hardest drugs money can buy, but you must refrain. You are determined to bring the preciousness of your expression forth with full presence into the world, naturally.
You breathe through the transition of a life of singularity until the moment your sacred canal widens. Your exquisite creation bears itself down the dark, broadened path. You support it with tireless pushing, the pain of its heaviness threatening to rip you apart, until it crowns, piercing the veil of known and unknown, forging the knowable and unknowable into a tenderly soft cry of precious new life.
When you gaze upon it, your tears will flow and your body will ache. In all of the chaos, all you can feel is joy. All you can understand is love, and all you can express is radiance.
It is in this excruciating, life-altering experience that you have grown to love a part of yourself you have never seen before more deeply than the star-scattered sky.
Anjana Love Dixon is a Spiritual Thought Leader, Interfaith Minister, Psychologist, and holds a doctorate in divinity. In 2012 Anjana launched The Anjana Network, the home base of her wisdom writings. It is from this place that she delivers deeply personal reflections of her journey to wholeness, inspires change, and provokes thought. Through sharing influential insights through interviews, articles, and her unique connection to the world, Anjana has become an internationally renowned wisdom writer and cited spiritual thought leader with contributions to major online publications including Rebelle Society, Elephant Journal, Match.com, and HuffPost Live. Anjana is a member of The Beautiful Writer’s Group with Danielle LaPorte and Linda Sivertsen and is currently preparing for the launch of her second book, Start in The Dark: Soul Work for Opening the Heart and Creating a (Real) Life.