I realize now, looking back at my journey of transformation, which felt more as a transmutation -- a death/rebirth process -- what I went through was an energetic, alchemical process that changed my whole consciousness and, consequently, my self-identity, the process akin to what a caterpillar ...
There is a field that lies between the lands of these mixed messages. Within that field lives your truth. It is that soil which you must tend to and care for, because that is the soil which will support and nourish your soul.