I’m on My Way to Freedom.
I’ve been pursuing this beautiful journey in the world to find myself, and as always, solo-journeying into the world brings me back to myself and to my feelings.
I’d like to highlight a few of the lessons that I have learnt on the way since the year started. I’m both lost and found, always in between places and losing my anchor, which accelerates my introspective mind and brings in new clues that I would like to share with you.
We all knew that this Monkey year was supposed to be deeply transformational. It actually is.
Before these past months, I would believe many of the following:
That we need to know before we do, that we need to prepare all of our safety nets before we take any leaps.
That what we have experienced in our past dictate who we are and who we will be.
That the further away we go from what the world expects, from what you have been told, or from what sounds familiar and therefore safe, the more we are likely to get lost, make mistakes or fail.
That life comes with guidelines that are applicable to everyone. Also, it felt clear that if one doesn’t respect those, they would probably end up alone and penniless on a street.
That risking what we do have and know, for what still doesn’t exist, for what is still a transparent nothing, was a hopeless fairy tale for kids.
All of the above were old beliefs that the past months have proved wrong.
If we want to change our life, we have to believe that it is possible. To get closer to our dreams and to what sounds right, we first need to become blank pages. We need to get rid of everything that’s not us. We need to close all the chapters of our lives that we have outgrown.
First, we need to make room for what will come. This is the first step before anything new could enter our path.
Struggles and tears are part of the way, and shouldn’t be fought. Upward journeys require getting committed to become stronger. Miracles require becoming whole.
Bravery isn’t about fighting fears, pains and regrets, or getting rid of the dark.
Bravery is embracing our feelings, it’s resting in them. It’s reading everything that needs to be heard on the inside. It’s listening to whatever comes from our hearts or spirits, with no judgment or fear.
It’s seing what surfaces as messengers, digest the lessons they deliver, and be, act, do or move accordingly.
Bravery is scary. Bravery is hard, bravery sucks, bravery is tears.
Nothing is impossible. Impossible is a very strong-rooted belief, but it’s still only a belief. People will tell you lots about what’s not possible or not reasonable. That’s because they project their own fears on you.
We shall listen, forgive, forget, and move anyway. Every opinion has their right to be.
But in the end, each night, when time has come to rest, the only thing that truly matters is to be at peace with our own selves — not to be this or that, or to prove our worth to the crowd.
Yes, we could talk about what we would do if we could. We could wonder about this or that, and imagine what life could be for hours, months. For a lifetime.
We could watch shows and movies, we could drink ourselves to death, we could buy things endlessly. To forget what’s actually going on, to kill time, to escape from a disappointing reality, to avoid seing, to make sure that we don’t feel.
But the only way to create another life is to get committed to changing. The only way to know about anything, about anyone, is to try, experience and see.
No reliable answer will come from just sitting and thinking about it.
No dissonance will leave if everything remains unchanged.
And of course, we don’t need to continue doing the same things that we decided 10 years ago, or because we are good at it. Evolution and growth are always equally valid options.
People may argue that life is the same everywhere, they will teach us that we need to adapt. That’s not always true.
Every city has its own soul. Every country has its own culture. Every hobby has its own people, with their specific ways of living and clothing.
The world is incredibly wide, it’s full of opportunities. Everything could be a must-see.
Life is all wound up, it’s amazingly endless. It will be what we want it to be. And we are allowed to seek till we have found that thing, that place, or those people who spread our own vibes.
Once we slowly start doing more and more of what brings joy, we can feel that we are on the right path. Days move from a passive place of shoulds to an active place of doing what we like. Inner peace, that irreplaceable feeling of truce, and the right people progressively come our way. The Universe starts to conspire to save us.
As soon as we have started to walk that road that leads to ourselves, it’s already too late. We can’t go back. We have already swum too far from the bank. We have already gone too high.
It’s light, it’s bright, some days the sun dazzles the eyes. We can’t really see what’s ahead anymore, we don’t truly know where we are going.
The only thing that we know is that we are joy-led and gently lifted up to something more beautiful. Not by a fire that burns, simply by that quiet melody of being what we like.
It might take its time, for sure. It’s the novel comprised of many layers of life, sometimes gently studied and pulled away.
Once we have touched that serenity coming from the inside, anything can happen on the outer realms. We are still free, we are still at peace.
This realization has no price.
Sophie Gregoire is a thinker. You may often find her with a new idea or a new concept to explain, holding a notebook and pencil. Also found reading and writing, she is more than anything an independent soul. She enjoys traveling and getting lost in new places, namely in Asia. She says it helps understanding our worlds, its people and the humankind. She loves writing to transform her endless thoughts into some kind of reality, and to keep the little piece of sanity she still has. She savors coffee, encounters, Yoga and meditation, and cats… while her own cat is her greatest muse! You could contact Sophie via Facebook, her writing page or her website.