The Art of Trusting Your Journey.
“Days are scrolls. Write on them what you want to be remembered.” ~ Rabbi Bahya ibn Paquda
When we decide to go through big changes in our lives, the movement is most likely caused by a deep-rooted feeling of discomfort.
We may feel that part of our present situation doesn’t respect our personal values, or doesn’t allow to grow what truly matters in our lives.
No matter what the specifics are, our situation feels dissonant because it doesn’t respect our true needs and desires. Hours, days, weeks and even years run in front of us, but it doesn’t feel like what’s happening actually speaks our words.
No, we do live and exist, but that’s not our anthem that we’re singing.
We’re living someone else’s life, or so it seems.
Many of us have been there, Wild One. You can trust those letters.
Yes, it’s the most uncomfortable feeling ever to actually see the discomfort, and allow the emotion of being in the wrong place to surface.
But what a big step, Wild One, to finally accept who you are and allow the message from your heart come up.
Yes, you had abandonned yourself there — your true needs, your dreams, your songs. It felt so wrong, even the furniture around you, even the clothes that you were wearing, even those words that you were repeating like a song — those were just things that you had learnt on the outside and that life had printed on you without asking for permission.
You were so brave, you’ve managed to survive where it felt like fakeries, for so long.
What a hard battle it is to fight against one’s true self. The hardest of all, perhaps. You’re out of it now.
Trust those words.
So yes, most likely the rhythm of your heart and the dreams of your soul are going to require you to take action.
See, stand in front of a mirror and see, how bright your eyes shine, how sparkling their green or blue or brown gets, when you tell yourself that this big change is about to happen. See how genuine and light your smile now is, when you picture yourself taking that leap.
See how radiant things could be on the other side.
Yes, you’ll most likely need to step away from something, from somewhere — even if you had settled, even if it felt safe.
I know, I remember. Trust those words.
Life is asking you to walk in the direction of your heart and to choose what heals, if you wish.
After that, the only thing that will be required from you is to trust.
Trusting is an art. Trust is white magic.
Trust will be your everything. Trust will be your first smile in the morning, Trust will be your prayers. Trust will be your favorite music. Trust will be what you hear when you start wondering or forcing things.
Trust is your everything now — because deep down, you know what you’re leaving, but where you’re going is the unknown.
Your mind is about to resist it. The masculine side of our beings actually wants to know how the future will look, and to have the next step sorted out before taking action.
But the soul’s callings sometimes require us to keep moving without knowing what may happen next.
Sometimes, you’ll need to release the situations that can’t answer your needs and well-being anymore, before what life has in store for you may come your way.
Sunsets must happen, always, before the rise of a new dawn.
Sometimes, even right when you were about to stop trusting, that a miracle happens.
“Don’t give up. Remember, it’s always the last key on the key ring that opens the door.” ~ Paulo Coelho
Most of the time, you’re about to stop believing in magic when you’ve gone really too far from your safety nets and abandoned a lot of what you used to have.
That place is rough, because nothing is left, or so it seems.
There is nothing tangible anymore to prove your faith right. It felt so true to trust and to be led by mysteries. But see, nothing has happened. Nobody, nothing new, has come to rescue your soul.
You feel low, only because of the space that surrounds you.
How brave you have been, Wild One, to get there. What a magical being you must be.
Actually you’re feeling that void precisely because you’ve done all the work. Your soul has managed to take you out of all the things that weren’t truly you.
In the middle of that vacuum is paradoxically where you need to trust the most.
Perhaps, life is asking you to wait just a little more. A few more hours, a few more days or a few more weeks, say the fairies.
Life is asking you to keep seeing the signs that have brought you here, to keep hearing your heart, your calling. Yes, synchronicities are harder to find, but they are still there, for sure.
You see less of them — only because fear and anxiety have gotten closer to your skin.
Of course, it felt less scary when you had everything.
But it’s still you, your heart, your magic. Remember. You could replace your doubts, your questions, by that fiery hope that you had. Try and remember the sparkles, the butterflies in your stomach.
Those are you heart, your truth, your soul.
If you could remember how it felt at that time, to walk in the direction of your dreams.
No, you haven’t fallen down.
You need to keep trusting that your heart hasn’t played with you. No, it never could, it never will. It has led you where you were meant to go for the next step of your journey, and now Life is about to meet you along the way.
Keep walking in the direction of what brings joy, and you shall see that a rebirth of sorts is about to happen.
No, life hasn’t given up on you. That void is your success, that space is the picture of your bravery.
It’s precisely because you have been strong enough to make room for the new, that the new is about to unfold.
We are always rewarded when we are brave enough to trust that much.
Trust those words, Wild One.
Trust those letters. You shall see that Life would never give up on such a magical being.
Your answers will be found, at the heart of movement.
“Thou canst not travel on the Path before thou hast become that Path itself.” ~ Helena Petrovna Blavatsky
Sophie Gregoire is a thinker. You may often find her with a new idea or a new concept to explain, holding a notebook and pencil. Also found reading and writing, she is more than anything an independent soul. She enjoys traveling and getting lost in new places, namely in Asia. She says it helps understanding our worlds, its people and the humankind. She loves writing to transform her endless thoughts into some kind of reality, and to keep the little piece of sanity she still has. She savors coffee, encounters, Yoga and meditation, and cats… while her own cat is her greatest muse! You could contact Sophie via Facebook, her writing page or her website.