Falling in Love with Myself Through My Life Story.
My life story was a story I created for myself based on other stories.
A story that I read, learnt, understood as true, and projected outwardly.
My life story was one that gave me my principles and characteristics.
A story that handed me occupations in which I believed I had to play the game to win and succeed.
My life story was one that wrapped me up in conditioned beliefs and values.
A story that injected me with likes and dislikes and rights and wrongs.
My life story was one that fueled within me an array of disassociating patterns and behaviors.
A story that motivated my decisions based on illusions and doubts regarding myself and others.
My life story was one that unwillingly ignited within me expectations, desires and satisfactions.
A story that dressed me up in shame and guilt, leading me to carry years of blame in association with my femininity and beauty.
My life story was one that took me on a journey into my wildest shadows.
A story that delivered me to insanity where I came face to face with my ego, realizing that for many years I was my ego.
My life story was one that negotiated my abundant suffering, limitless pools of lies, and habitual thought processes.
A story that encouraged me to question and reason with my own existence.
My life story punched me hard, shook me until I was comfortably numb, and sent me spiraling turbulently.
A story of addiction, aggression and desperation that molded me into a silently ticking time bomb.
My life story broke me, silenced me and stunned me.
A story that pushed me deep into nothingness until there was nothing left.
It was there that I found nothing and everything at the same time.
It was there that my heart spoke to me: “Are you worthy?” “Are you enough?” “Do you have a choice?” “Do you deserve to be happy?” “Are you ready for the truth?” “Do you believe in yourself?”
I heard and felt my heart for the first time.
I listened to my heart for the first time.
“Yes,” I said.
“Yes! Yes! Yes!” I screamed.
In that moment, my heart opened.
As it opened, I allowed in a beautiful golden light and felt every one of my cells renewing and transforming. I let in my divine light. I became light.
And then my healing began.
I became aware of all I was by understanding and accepting myself fully. I appreciated every form, every aspect, every piece of my creation, my reason and my purpose. I honored myself. I listened to myself. I felt myself. I saw myself.
I forgave every person, every situation and every experience which played a part in my heartache and my dis-ease. I forgave myself for allowing it all to happen. I forgave myself for the person I had allowed myself to become. I forgave myself for causing myself pain and suffering.
I cried and cried until every drop of lingering sadness had left my body.
Then, I fell in love with myself.
I never looked back. I only ever delved into the past if it was of service to myself or to others. I never looked too far forward. I knew the future did not yet even exist.
I breathed in my present and breathed out my past. I breathed in my present and breathed out my future. I breathed in my present and felt God in my heart.
I knew I only had the moment. My moment within every now that I was a part of. From that moment, I had the potential to create whatever reality I envisioned.
I knew I was all I had ever imagined, all I have ever dreamed I could be, all I ever wanted.
All within me.
And then, my life began.
Zoe Michael is a passionate Reiki Healer, practicing since 2015, who also enjoys offering additional services which include Intuitive Energy Massage, Sound Healing and Soul Journey card readings. Zoe has a wide array of skills with experience and professional work within Retail Management, Theater In Education, Acting, Student Workshop Facilitating and Teaching. As a passionate people-worker and lover of all things creative, Zoe has decided to continue on her soul path of supporting others through their spiritual awakening. She is currently in the process of writing a book which will share some of her most intimate and transformative life experiences. Through her book, she aims to empower the lives of others by teaching self-acceptance, forgiveness and self-love. Zoe wishes to continue her poetic journey, and aims to inspire and support people on their path of self-discovery and enlightenment.