It’s Time to Do Away with Ego’s Clothing.
I’m tired of these egos that we both seem to keep swimming in.
Sometimes when I think that they cannot possibly get any bigger, they end up somehow swallowing us whole and spitting us out in places where we don’t even recognize each other anymore.
Every breath exhausted carrying words of frustration and negativity, instead of peace along the wings of the dove. When we set out to do this — you and I — naïve souls that embarked upon this mission, this union in service to a higher consciousness, we had no idea just how much we were taking on. Nor did we understand just how much we’d have to strip bare.
I believe it is far easier on the other side where everything is all love and light, where you and I could sit down and map this out together, truly believing that we would be able to overcome the ocean of personality that was built up over lifetimes.
But stripping bare appears far scarier to the ego than it will ever feel to the soul. Which is why we seem to shed layers, only to put them back on again like the reaction of someone who’s just been caught walking around the house with no clothes on. We hide the vulnerable parts and run away in sad attempts to not let the others see us as we are.
I’m tired of the blocks that seem to keep cropping up.
Like adult Legos, we take our time building a tower together, but soon notice that somehow the foundation was not quite right, and though you always manage to make it out on time, for some reason I always stay behind to try to repair the damage. And once the tower is back up in its wobbly place, I feel you return and I wonder if you can sense the resentment building within me.
Can you hear me? Do you see me? Where did you go?
But this time, I feel different from before. I am finding that my nakedness is actually quite beautiful, and I will let these tide pools of emotions swim into my cellular memories to clear the past traumas and hurts. I will allow the salt water to sting as it licks my wounds and cleanses my soul. Then, just like a mermaid, my legs will take me down into the depths of my being.
I’ll find that rock, or stone, or block that lies hidden in the shadow, and I will remove it from the world that confines me and therefore confines us.
I’ll return to the surface only to be met with lightness and freedom. And I’ll notice in the distance that the rock found within the depths of my solitude will somehow shake loose the very tower that we built together.
But this time, instead of running to fix it, I’ll sit back and let it crumble to the ground. Because it’s time, beloved, do you feel it?
Do you feel that it’s time to do away with ego’s clothing? To strip yourself bare and run free?
So be in solitude, love. Dig deep into the story, dig deep into the root of the pain, then set yourself free. And when you’re ready, come find me.
I’ll be waiting for you on the shore, ready to build something in truth, deep love and freedom… something solid and lasting.
Natalie Sophia is a self-proclaimed writer, healer, yogini. Her mission in life is to heal and be healed. She loves to laugh, to feel and to write. She began her journey of awakening a few years ago, and though there are times she longs to go ‘back to sleep’, she knows she has work to do. Her work and her passion are one and the same, and she hopes to inspire others on their life path to attend to their deepest longings as a soul in a human body. Natalie feels that life is meant to be enjoyed, not endured. She knows that pain can be inevitable, but there is always choice in the story created from that pain. Feel free to check out more from Natalie on Facebook or on her website.