Emotions and Moving Beyond Manifesting Abundance.
I’ve been noticing how much my body contracts whenever I hear anyone say that they are working on clearing their blocks around abundance or that they are manifesting abundance.
When did it become a bad thing to just say that you want to make more money? I like the sound of it, like I have a hand in making (creating) money in my life. It feels better.
In our modern culture, our primal survival instincts for having enough food is now tied in to having enough money. Yes, our ancient programming for staying alive is now deeply, subconsciously connected to money since most of us live in places with an overabundance of what we could call food.
We can all have a million affirmations that our mind uses in an attempt to solve the problem of something far deeper. The root of our fear is related to primal survival in a culture set up through power, control and hierarchy where no one is really ever safe.
This is patriarchy. It is the negative, old father energy married to the old mother energy conditioned to relate through power earned through an accumulation of resources. Those resources now become money and love and light and consciousness. Whoever has the most resources shines the brightest light, takes up the most space, has the most energy, and is the one with the most power.
Dangerous subconscious programming has been happening in the self-help industry for a long time, that is very much wrapped up in this exact hierarchical, cultural programming.
If you aren’t manifesting money or love or whatever it is you want, then it must be because of some block you have, which is truly a very subtle way of saying that there is something wrong with you. It also keeps you in an addictive cycle of perpetual self-work.
If you were better, more aligned, vibrating at a better frequency, praying in the right way, speaking with the appropriate spiritually conscious language or evolved enough, then all the good things will come to you, as if the Universe is a headmaster only rewarding those who get a gold star on their spelling test.
It’s dangerous, and perpetuates a constant state of not good enough, along with feeding a sense of powerlessness and attacking ourselves to get it right.
The ego of our culture is co-opting spiritual teachings for its own agenda. We have a culture that is truly an abusive parent to all of us. This patriarchal, hierarchical culture completely dismisses our emotional life, our lived histories, and the cellular memories our bodies are working out.
We live in relationship with life. We live in relationship with money, love, abundance, the earth, nature, other people and ourselves. The relationship is transmitted through our emotional and subtle bodies, not our minds and our mindsets. All these other things symbolize is the hope to feel free, happy, loved, worthy and comfortable enough to feel relaxed in our own skin.
It’s dangerous to attach our worth to things outside of us and outside of our control. It creates fear. It makes us afraid of ourselves. You have control over your emotional life, your body, and the way you relate with all aspects of yourself and your life. You have the power within you to feel free, happy, loved, worthy and comfortable in your own skin. It’s healing this emotional neglect.
If I list all the emotions I have around money — shame, anger, fear, disappointment — I am literally in a relationship with something I rely on for survival, and yet have these primal feelings in my nervous system that I attempt to co-opt by trying to have a positive attitude or change myself so that money will come my way.
Wouldn’t it make more sense and be more sane to heal my relationship with my emotional body, to heal the shame and fear and empower myself to have a loving relationship with life and all I rely on for survival?
Isn’t this the basis of cultivating faith and trust in life?
We can’t afford to continue having a strange co-dependent relationship with life outside of us. The more we wake up, the more stretched we will feel, like we are splitting ourselves in half trying to fit in a world that promises we will be cool and loved if we do all the right things.
The Universe loves you. You are worthy of everything, especially your own love, your own affection, your own care, and your own light. When you turn your gaze upon your soul wound, and bring healing light to the places that can truly offer you what you long for the most, everything else will seriously just start to make more sense.
It has nothing to do with money, it’s a distraction from power dynamics, both inner and outer. Are you paying attention?
Dr. Nandi Hetenyi is a shamanic healer, grief midwife, writer, teacher and soul-whisperer. She received her doctorate in clinical psychology from CIIS in addition to spending over 15 years studying and practicing Buddhism, Yoga, meditation, shamanic journey, ritual, energy healing and personal growth. She envisions a world where we feel comfortable in our own skins and are happy about being a human. A world where everyone loves and values themselves as a part of the whole, where self-loathing is an oddity rather than the usual, and the soul’s truth is valued as a gift from the Divine in service of our highest good. Shedding light on the truth of the soul’s story liberates the sacred within to feel comfortable in your own skin. You can follow Dr. Hetenyi on Instagram and find out more about her work on her website.