archives, you & me

Dive into Your Pain Instead of Sedating It.

“I’m off the deep end, watch as I dive in
I’ll never meet the ground
Crash through the surface, where they can’t hurt us
We’re far from the shallows now” ~ Lady Gaga

We are so far from the shallows now. There is no turning back. The shore is way too far away. Dive and swim. That’s all we can do. Dive deep and swim hard. We are all in the waters. There is no dry land in sight. Our emotions have us now.

The time for fucking around is over. If we, you and me, can’t feel the massive pull on our energies as we head towards 2020, then we are the dead walking. There’s a difference between living and being alive. Now’s the time to discern that difference, and for all of us to make that choice. Do we want to just live or do we want to be alive?

There is no more time available for us to bury ourselves in the outside distractions of this world. There’s nowhere to run, and there is no more hiding. We can’t hide from ourselves. No matter how far we run, or what we choose to self-medicate our pain with. Our pain, our shadow is what is constantly calling to us. Sedation is no longer an option.

All these distractions, the absolute chaos we see in the world, they are merely a reflection of the mess within us. A reflection of our pain. Some of it we have carried over in our bloodlines, our past lives. But none of the facts of where our pain comes from matter.

What matters is the fact that if our shadows or our pain are to be healed in this lifetime, then they will manifest in the circumstances of this life. We will see and feel them. And they will call to us and show us the path to healing.

So cut the bullshit. We all need to stop avoiding the real work. I do, you do, we all do.

It’s time for us to all go deep. That’s the call. The trumpet has been sounded.

Have you heard it?

The gates you are asked to enter. The thresholds you are asked to cross. The portals you are shown to pass through. All these things exist within you. They aren’t outside of yourself. They aren’t some sort of higher existence you are reaching for.

They are you.

If you and me and everyone else wants to go higher, to raise our vibrations, then it’s time to dive deep. Deep inside us. 

That work you and I have been ignoring, it;s calling to us. All of us. We ignore it, because the work involves looking at our pain. And looking at our pain hurts. It hurts deep. Hell, we all try to avoid it in some way or another. Who wants to hurt? Not me.

And the world offers us so many avenues that will make that pain go away. Drugs, alcohol, sex, gambling, shopping, food, the list goes on and on. But we shouldn’t pick up those things, they won’t make us feel better. Well, not for long. Avoid that instant gratification, and instead feel your pain. Your pain will show you the way, and light your path through the darkness. Follow that light.

Love is the highest vibration of all. So it’s no surprise that our own personal love stories will point the way over and over to where our true pain patterns lie. What you see reflected in your outside love stories, those things originate within you, and are then reflected back at you. So you can see your pain.

Feel abandoned? Where have you abandoned yourself? Feel unloved? How have you not loved yourself? Can’t get someone to commit to you? Commit to loving yourself.

We are all heading towards higher forms of love. Divine unions. We manifest this union first within ourselves. We show up loved and committed to the self. Then we will see that truth reflected back towards us. As a love, that will blow our socks off. A holy, committed divine union of the highest form. The alpha and omega.  

So dive into that pain. Dive deeper than you have ever gone.

Because what is at stake? You are! You and me, and this whole goddamned reality we call life. The New Earth is being born and it’s going to require all of us to turn up in our best state. Healed and whole. Not half-healed, but completely whole. The Titanic is going down, and just like Rose had to let go of Jack, you have to let your shit go.

It’s only by letting go of all this heavy stuff that we have all been carrying around, that weighs us down in our spirits and our souls, that we are going to bring this ship back to rights and finally head for the shore. The shore of a new paradigm. Heaven manifests here. Matter and Spirit become one. This is what we are all here to do. To embody Spirit in Matter. In us and in Nature.

All other things we do are distractions, pure and simple. Heaven isn’t some place away from here. This is it. And it’s up to us to manifest this truth in our reality. No one is coming to save us. We are all our own heroes. You. Me. Us.

And it all starts with us.  That’s it. Sort our shit, that’s all we really have to do.

Our shadows, they constantly call to us. No matter how much we try to ignore them. They are always right there. Saying, Hey, I’m right here, I’m your shit, I’m not going anywhere.

We can hide all day. We can busy ourselves with all manner of things. But we can’t hide from ourselves for long. We must deal with ourselves eventually. 

So what should we do? How can we do our part to heal this world?

It’s simple. Stop sedating. We need to feel our pain. We need to stop running away and sit with those horrible uncomfortable feelings.

It’s really that easy.

See you on the other side. The side of love.


Kim Turfrey is a mother and lover of life who lives in New Zealand and has spent a lifetime working with plants as well as Earth and Spiritual energies in order to find healing for herself and others. Being born with the gift of disability has enabled her to see the world through different eyes, and develop a deep love and gratitude for life. She works with people all around the world through the vehicle of her business Confirmations of Self, and empowers them with sets of tools that enable them to identify and move through the current and future challenges they face in the unification process. If you would like to contact Kim for enquiries about this work, you can get hold of her via email or Facebook.


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