I was no longer writing the book just for my own therapeutic benefit; I was writing it now to be read by others. Therefore I had to be -- to the best of my abilities -- absolutely honest and authentic.
And, trust me, it is an eye and heart opening experience. I can say this unequivocally: there are not any bad people living rough (homeless). There aren't any people struggling with problems that are irrevocable or broken situations that are irrecoverable.
Self-realization, on the other hand, is not only accepting (tolerating) who we really and are and who others are, it's understanding them and ourselves in our entirety. You cannot have compassion or empathy for someone (including yourself) by just accepting or tolerating them or you.
Detox lasts four or five days. The day before I was to be discharged, a social worker visited me and this time I was wise enough to agree to accept additional help after I left. I signed up for an intensive outpatient rehab center located near where I was living.
I think the lesson to be learned, if there is one, is that one can never let their guard down when dealing with evil — and yes, racism is evil. It’s a part of our human makeup and has instigated most of our wars, and inspired our most atrocious acts of mass murder, torture, enslavement and genocide.
How we react to this and other pressing social issues of our times is important; it tells us a lot about ourselves, and also defines how we will act, or not. I don't think I am going out on a limb here -- and if I am, that's fine -- by saying that most of us would feel all of the above, except anger. Anger is reserved for those who experience something uncomfortable or tragic directly -- like the unjust loss of a child to a random bullet.
I think this is a very important phenomenon for generations coming of age now to take note of, examine and refine. Let data and information be determinants in how you form your equations about Life, but don't allow them to become the overriding factors, or a substitute for personal experience and intuition.
I discovered that it is very important, during a challenging transition period such as this, to create positive experiences for oneself and avoid people who want to complain and feel victimized by whatever happened in their lives to bring them to the Rabbit Hole.
Presidential elections in the US rarely produce interesting unpasteurized candidates, but some of the issues that come up inadvertently during the endless campaigns often raise thought-provoking considerations. What is Leadership? was the leading one this year.
The question here is: has the modern Sexual Revolution liberated us in order to enjoy deeper and more long-lasting intimate relationships, or has the absence of the potential for fertility in the sex act caused us to become more distant from the original sacred purpose of intimacy?
Many of us who are trying to make a living through a form of personal and creative expression, will likely experience difficult financial times at some point in our lives. Wading through these trying periods is part of the creative maturation process; it helps us define who we are and what we are willing to live and fight for.
"What are we doing here, that is the question...Let us make the most of it, before it is too late! Let us represent worthily for one the foul brood to which a cruel fate consigned us! What do you say?"
It is as torturous a sensation to experience as I can only imagine being buried alive would be. More than a few times during this period, I wondered — realistically, not morbidly — if the end of this experience would be through me joining my mother?
When an experience like this happens to you -- and you've taken the necessary time to recover and restore yourself -- you find yourself in a state of profound gratitude to those who helped you, along with a strong desire to want to reciprocate for the help you received by being of service to others.