My inner crazy feels uncomfortable with the boredom of small talk and commonplace things – I want to know what makes your heart come alive – I want to know what drives your desires and makes your soul sing – I want to lie under the stars and imagine other worlds – I can’t understand when you tell me how much you earn or what you want to buy but I want to listen when you tell me what you want from life and what you want to see and how much you want to give of your crazy self to the world. I can relate to your delicious insanity and your craving to get naked and shout obscenities as you run into the ocean, under the moon.
Love at its very purest state, is an energy, a vibration and a way of being – we come from love and it is love to which we will return. Our earliest impulse is to love and our last fleeting moments will be spent in a state of love. Love cannot be bought or sold – You cannot own love, you cannot acquire or lose it – We cannot look for love in the hope that it will complete us, because we are made of love – it is, at our very essence, who we already are.
We are encouraged to seek the light and chase rainbows, avoiding and ignoring the rumbles of heart ache, the acrid sting of neglect and the painful whispers from the depths of our souls, but what of this darkness that lurks within each one of us? What becomes of that?
Society has taught us to stay, to settle, to stop our hungry hearts from yearning for freedom. But what if you are filled with a burning and bursting longing for more? What if your heart screams at you to move, to create, to write, to paint, to sing, to travel, to live?
I have been gripped by debilitating fear -- of the unknown, of the possibility of failure, of the cringing blush of rejection and the potential shame of self-expression. But I have also been embraced by Love and Hope. I have known love of myself and my life and of others, so mind-blowing in its existence that my heart was close to bursting and I felt so free and so wild that nothing could get in the way of the life I always wanted.
“Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swamps of the not-quite, the not-yet, and the not-at-all. Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach. The world you desire can be won. It exists.. it is real.. it is possible.. it's yours.”