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Gratitude for Pain.

July 26, 2016

I'm tired because I cried for hours and hours and hours last night, tears streaming and soaking my pillow, and I woke with swollen eyes, still feeling sorry for myself, missing my partner, lamenting my children's misfortune, and feeling the depths of depression that have characterized my life ...

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Which Whimsical Seuss-like Heart Do You Pick from Your Wardrobe?

July 20, 2016

I like to imagine I have a big wardrobe full of hearts. Some days I can choose one, almost whimsically, like a brightly colored scarf. Some days it is more complicated. I pretend these hearts are hung in a neat little row on pretty hangers, and tucked into drawers with sweetly scented sachets. ...

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5 Steps for Getting Off of the Ledge and Back into Life.

June 23, 2016

My belief at the time was that I would 'go' when the money ran out. I thought, "Well, fuck it, the Universe obviously must not want me in it." Job-hunting and interviewing became a daily practice of building myself up only to be torn down. So I gave the Universe a suicide deadline.

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It’s Not too Late to Take that Leap.

June 16, 2016

What would my 20-year-old self think of my almost 40-year-old self? She’d probably think, "Oh fuck, you still haven’t done any of that stuff? Now it’s way too late. You’re old. You missed the boat." And I’d say, "Yeah, I know, I know, I’ve been thinking that too."

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You Can Do ‘The Thing’ And You Don’t Have To Be Happy To Do It!

June 3, 2016

All you actually need to have to do that dreaded Thing is a few seconds of stubbornness, enough stubbornness to try, to make a little teeny tiny small and smelly promise to yourself that you will try, that you're open to it not working and looking stupid and feeling small.

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What Happens When You Find Love Again.

April 19, 2016

You trusted the last one when the red flags went off, so what makes this one different? What makes this love trustworthy and worth it? Between the fear and the doubt of your own understanding of the fear that is still in your mind, you have to trust your heart and your intuition.

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Engulfed In The Beauty Of Becoming.

April 18, 2016

No one would know a tree had in it the secret power of becoming, this arduous task to burst into grace. No one questioned its tumultuous process of arriving, regal garlands growing in its hair. No one would think months ago a tree would be born anew. But this season has always come. There is a ...

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Making Ecstatic Mountains Out Of Molehills.

April 13, 2016

I collect these moments. As if they are shiny gold pieces and the brightest ruby and shimmering emerald stones. Treasures often found after digging through the mud.

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The Back And Forth Of Grieving A Divorce.

March 25, 2016

The second half of the year I spent picking up the pieces of my shattered self, trying to navigate and recreate a new normal for my daughter and me.

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I Finally Chose Me.

March 21, 2016

There were still feelings of sadness present after this epiphany, because I knew I had to have a discussion with another who was part of this particular situation. I knew they weren’t going to like my decision. However, the empowerment I felt trumped all feelings of grief and sadness, and it ...

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