High standards of the gifted impress some, but for others it comes off as 'intense'. They might not find a match who'd tolerate their needs.
You’re burnt out, and you need to 'rest'. Pull back from the hustle and bustle of the outside world, and focus on your immediate environment.
Stop doing what everyone expects you to do! Stop pleasing others, start pleasing yourself. In life and in the bedroom! Buck the status quo.
Mother appears merciless because She re-creates after She destroys. Like Kali and Durga, She destroys what does not serve us anymore.
Many spiritual traditions, so deeply culturally appropriated in the West, incorporate acknowledging of impermanence, of death and letting go.