Unlike with tantric sources, I have never come across ancient Egyptian sex magic sources which are historically defendable.
Your anxiety might exist not because of something you’ve done wrong, but because of the nature of growing up as a highly sensitive overthinker.
The gateway to this 'togetherness' is formed of the bravery it takes to clearly, unambiguously hunger for someone as Durito hungered for the ballerina.
I can’t recall feeling angry with Dad for his death, perhaps that is still to come. I have felt angry that I’ve had to deal with any of it at all.