The dormant fullness of the present can be expanded and further enriched by magnifications of what the cumulative future holds.
Relaxing the continuous, low-level strain of striving after outcomes, attainables, and pre-fab goals, spontaneity unleashes the passionate joys.
At the meditation retreat, I cried in the shower. I cried for so much bullshit. raw and exposed, and feeling so close to something real and constant, I let loose.
So did you fail at being something too? Well, good! Now you've got space to wade through the paint and come back to the canvas that was your true non-identity in the first place. And then either paint a new picture or refine the present one you're working on... which might take you the rest of ...
I could tell you what worked for me at different stages of my life, but what good will that really do for you? Instead, I’ll take a new approach.
“It is interesting that Hindus, when they speak of the creation of the universe do not call it the work of God, they call it the play of God, the Vishnu lila, 'lila' meaning 'play'. And they look upon the whole manifestation of all the universes as a play, as a sport, as a kind of dance.” ~ ...