A man will be conscious and present to the same degree that you are actively radiating your love and allowing life force itself to roll through your being.
Remember when our mothers told us not to stare at the sun? Sometimes all the knowledge in the world can't stop us from steadily gazing at something so beautiful yet so damaging, simply because the destructive masterpiece is just so worthy of our attention. Addicting.
For as difficult as it is for me to get out of bed, it was just as hard to get out of that relationship. And as out of the question it is for me to avoid hitting that tempting Snooze button, it was just as impossible for me to not accept the re-invitation from that horrid yet irresistible man.