My sisters and I watched it for years. It made us angry, so we chose emotionally damaged boy/men at early ages. They divorced theirs. I stayed. And left.
I took a series of traveling personal retreats at various centers and remote cabins. Regardless of location, each time was an intensive deep dive.
It takes two... This realization was known and placed somewhere in my being, but I had never had the emotional capacity to apply it to my own life.
Southern Christianity does not abide women having ideas, never mind visions. She read voraciously of all things spiritual.