I see all human interaction as a complex web, each person and collection of people imbued with part of the map of the human landscape.
There isn’t enough (scarcity) to go around, so I have to submit to their authority, and someday I’ll be powerful enough that they will have to submit to me.
I tried several times to create a new identity and put myself and my offering out into the world. It would launch quite well, and then gradually fizzle out.
Our power is that deep self-acceptance of living for ourselves. Quit living for someone else, in search of their praise. You’re doing it right -- you’re going to be just fine.