Elisabeth Kübler-Ross and David Kessler, in 'On Grief and Grieving', identified five stages of grief: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression and Acceptance.
Division denies what we feel instinctively and yearn for deeply, though we resist it politically. Even so, we routinely sense our connection to something greater than ourselves. We experience it as separate only because of ignorance and circumstances.
I am a worthless human being, and I simply can’t affirm or meditate or pray my way out of it. It’s liberating, in a strange way, to know this.
I cry into animal fur because of harsh words shared so many times about this topic in the darkest corners of my life, and because of my primal urge to push bone and flesh from the wildest part of my soul into the world. So you don't know the shocking grief of having had moments of deep longing, ...
And she wishes to mother her babies again, so delicious they were, and their scent, the way they smelled, like innocence, with her cheek up against, their silky, smooth cheeks so to breathe them in, to feel a tiny, flailing fist against her skin, and little eyes looking up, to feel them ...
Your humanity is your gift. Your humanity will save the earth. Your humanity will save you.