I can't just sit here and not say anything because 'sobriety' is a big deal to some people and a life or death matter to all of us addicts.
Be safe in the knowledge that it too will be impermanent, it will be subject to change, and the trip -- 'any' trip -- will pass.
I learnt a life-changing lesson from a book I was recommended: Waking the Tiger: Healing Trauma by Peter Levine, a groundbreaking researcher into the ways humans fail to mimic animals in their ability to dispel trauma from their bodies in quick time.
We can completely lose our sense of self and reality when PTSD symptoms haunt us in the form of nightmares, flashbacks that are visceral or visual, crying spells, numbing or withdrawing, panic attacks, drowning in intense moods and feelings, rageful outbursts, acute conflict, vulnerability to ...
I hope that one day I know a slightly less intense experience, but I laugh writing that because what if life is intense? What if things are just intense? What if I am intense and I feel things intensely, and that’s okay? Because it is. It sure doesn’t fucking feel like it, but ultimately I know ...