You receive because it is your birthright. You love in all the ways you neglected to love him You love in all the ways he taught you to love the world
This is what I thought is was to be sovereign, and yet, my whole body was in revolt, telling me otherwise. My words did not match my energetic frequency.
I surrender. I don’t have the sparkle in my eye that says, it’ll be okay in the end. Tonight, it’s not okay. I’m not okay.
At first, I tried to get back up and get going again, to soldier on, to get better soon, but it didn’t help. I needed to stay down.