Resistance to Happiness and Love.
By Cody DeBoer.
In love we can feel ourselves floating off into the distant stars, soaring, expanding, and sparkling with luster. Our child like imaginations are kindled as we fly above the clouds, gaining an immunity from anything that sucks.
Our hearts glow, melt, and radiate as our blood carries magical chemicals that flood and flush our entire system from our head to toes. We reach the highest planes, yet can we allow that love to enter the deepest and darkest parts of ourselves? If we do, It then becomes a love with substance. This type of love can endure the tough times, instead of jumping from one high to another, only skipping across the dark waters.
If we begin to become familiar with ourselves on a deeper level, we might open the inner catacombs of darkness and begin releasing the powers that have bound our unconscious behaviors since the beginning of our incarnations. We begin to see and feel everything we have ever hidden from ourselves, and as we go deeper and deeper, we find the pit to be bottomless. Though, we may have spent so much time doing shadow work, and releasing our resistance to darkness, that we have built a resistance to light as well.
We become so comfortable in the dark, like a vampire that only comes out at night, that we don’t want to leave the coffin. We might even come to hate the words light, love, happiness, and that’s okay too, but we might be resisting their beauty, and the fullness of experience.
When our hearts break, the chambers of self are deepening and expanding. The pain that we experience is the demolition and tearing apart of the walls that have held up against our infinite depth. As we give this process time and protection, we can begin to remove the bandages from the operation. No one can tell you how much time to take, but eventually we can begin to open the floodgates of light to fill every crevice that has expanded through our experience. The further we have allowed ourselves to crumble apart, the more love we can let in.
The most common type of happiness you might hear about is the kind without substance. It floats above a dark pit, and wishes not to descend. But a happiness with substance is the kind that can be integrated into that pit. As we tear down those walls and resistances to happiness and love one by one, we let the integration take place and allow the people, situations, and feelings of meaning and substance to enter into the depth of ourselves.
Cody DeBoer sleeps on a friends couch and glazes windows for money In Vancouver B.C. He is a deep and sensitive soul that can’t help but come up with new ideas and express his passion in any and all ways possible. He loves spirituality that involves the horror and gruesome truth of our darkness, and the beautiful divine love that can be integrated into that terrifying human hell hole. He is hoping to get a new job building movie sets, and get his own apartment, all the while continuing the pursuits of his creativity. After a few years of lying in dark hole, he has discovered an inspiration that arises naturally from within, and is driven by a chariot of angels and demons. You can reach him on Facebook , or check out his blog “Getting Real with Galidor” here: Cody Wizard.